So, I've never really blogged about this-probably just in case it would come across "negative" or sounding like "poor me". But lately, I've had this impression that I should write about it. Maybe there's someone out there that could benefit from reading this, but I'm sure that it is probably just for myself. So here goes...
As most of you already know, I've been having "baby problems" for several years now. By "baby problems" I mean infertility+miscarriages+a still born baby (she had anencephaly which is a severe neural tube defect, and she didn't survive). In the past seven years, I've been diagnosed with endometriosis, ovarian cysts, low progesterone, breast fibro adenomas, irregular ovulation, thrombophilia (genetic blood clotting disorder that makes me miscarry) as well as a few other minor things.
I consider it a MIRACLE that Bryan still loves me after all of these crazy health problems. Also, I feel SO BLESSED to have been able to bear Tate. He has definitely been our little miracle! According to my doctor, with everything going on with me that month, it was nearly impossible for me to conceive when I did!
Knowing that it would probably take a little while to get pregnant again, we began ttc when Tate was just tiny still. We've been trying now for about 3 1/2 years, and obviously still no baby. But, I'm fine in fact I'm great about it, and here's why:
About a year ago now, I was pretty discouraged with "baby issues". I remember sitting in church one Sunday and thinking about all of my trials and feeling sorry for myself. I began to say a silent prayer asking for strength, when all of a sudden the most beautiful feeling I've ever experienced came upon me. I felt as if H.F. was hugging me and telling me that all was well. I knew at the very moment that he was aware of everything that I was experiencing.
Even though it's been a whole year since this experience, and I'm still not pregnant. I can still remember vividly that feeling of love that I felt. I know that Heavenly Father loves me individually. I can honestly say that I'm grateful for the challenges that I have, because without them I wouldn't be the person I am today!
That has to be such a hard trial to deal with!! Your amazing faith is such an example to me!!! It's so nice to know Heavenly Father is in charge and that he knows each one of us and our pains and struggles. You are not only lucky to have Tate--he is SO lucky to have you!! You are such a great mom!
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing you story. We had lots of infertility stuff too, and adopted three children before becoming pregnant.
ReplyDeleteI went to a chiropractor here in town who does laser treatments and has had lots of success (me included!) in helping women conceive and bear children.
If you are interested in getting more info about him, I'd love to share!
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You are amazing, Maria! What a trooper you are. I had no idea how much you've been through. *HUGS*
ReplyDeleteYou have such a good perspective on things. You can see your faith, even though you have/are dealing with this trial in your life. That is neat that your cousin is compiling stories...I will have to send her one. That is a great idea.
ReplyDeleteTate is SURE cute & I can tell what a great mom you are to him!!!